By: Ally-Cat
(Original)
Dedicated to: Hannah, a new friend.
It was her first day.
It was everyone's first day truthfully. The day you see everyone you'll be around with for four years. The day you recieve your first impressions of others and vice versa.
The time to be judged or be the judger.
That day, she saw her.
And she wasn't the first "smart" girl she'd seen that day. Everyone was smart compared to her. Luckily, this shy girl was able to sit next to the smart-looking girl.
Wow, she's writing!
Oh, my god! Her handwriting is soo good!
Man, I really want to say something. It's just so intimidating. She's so intimidating.
She seems so smart! What if she thinks I'm a total idiot?!
Ugh, I'll never be able to make friends if I talk. At all. My words trip over one another and come out in a studder.
I can never say anything right.
Huh, she holds her pencil interestingly.
She reminds me of my friend. Writing nonstop. But that friend isn't here anymore. If she were here she sure would have said something to her by now.
What's wrong with me?!
Okay stop look at her. People will think you're weird.
The shy, awkward girl turns her head. But the war inside her head still rages on.
God, say something. Anything! Ask her what she's writing!
No, that sounds too noisy.
Introduce yourself!
The shy, awkard girl turns her head ever so slightly. If an outsider would have been watching, they would have noticed a trembling hand of the girl and her eyes dart around nervously.
The shy, awkward girl jerks her head back.
Wonderful, not only have you probably brought attention to yourself, but you're too chicken to talk to one person. Wimp.
On the outside the shy, awkard girl didn't show any emotion, but on the inside she cursed herself for letting herself down once again.
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Author's Note: Basically, I wrote about a girl who lacks self-esteem and can't muster up the courage to talk to this girl sitting next to her. In italic's is her thoughts, her conflict, going inside her mind. She over thinks her actions and words. Worries constantly and all this holds her back.
Oh, and something else, this was me. And the girl next the "shy, awkward girl", was Hannah. And that's when I first met her.
Hannah is now a fantastic friend. She's even writing something for me. I can't wait to see it! She's so wonder and nice in real life! She has a great talent for writing and is 1000x better at it than I am.
I figured: if she is making me something, why not make her something nice for her?
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~Ally-Cat
