A Pep Talk For Myself

I've been feeling down lately which has been destroying my NYR.  So I decided, "Heck, you need a pep talk". I was going to open a document and write myself a letter, but then thought "why not write it on ye ol' blog?" And here I am. Enjoy! ;)

Dear Ally-Cat,
      I know life has really gotten you down lately.  All you do is worry.  You worry about whether people are fake.  Do they even care? You worry about your attitude toward your parents.  You love them, but you can't help, but be annoyed with everything they do. And then there's that whole boy situation...No matter what you can't get a break it seems.
    I know you've recently started praying nightly to God.  But you think, "Is this really helping?" It seems he'll fix one thing and then hashes out another challenge.  You know that he's testing you,  but there are so many options to choose; how are you suppose to know which one is the right one?  You're scared.  Overwhelmed.  Tired.  I understand because...well, I'm you.
   Ally-Cat, God loves you.  That is the first thing you should always remember.  He'll never leave you to walk a path on your own.  It's you who needs to step up.  Be the man.  Err, woman as the case maybe.  Show Life that they are the boss of you.  Be your own.  I think you need a break. You need to just stay home and be with you.  You need to calm down.  You feel like all you do is complain. DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.  Stop being whiny and move on.  If being single is what you need THEN BE SINGLE! If being more outgoing is what you need, then talk to people! Stop cowering and hiding! Be a better person.
   You're parents do love you.  Gosh, why can't you see that.  Why can't you be nice?  Why can't you see what all they've done for you.?  You're insecure.  Be confident.  Love you. Look here's some great things about you:
-artistic
-sympathetic
-think before you act
-caring
-don't drink or do drugs
  You care. You always will.  You can't change that.  You area a "mom" no matter how much you hate being called one.  You figure if someone doesn't look after the careless, then you should.  If you weren't there in some of those past situations, things might have gone totally wrong.  It's a lot of work, but isn't it worth it?
  As for a friend, maybe you should let her have him.  I mean.  In you're heart you just know it would be better that way, right?  Then where does that leave you?  Alone.  Can you handle being alone? Well, there's you guy friend.  Just thinking about dating him, sends shivers down your spine.  It's wrong.  To you anyway.  Be yourself.  Let it play out.   Stay single as long as possible.  Being friends with everyone is the right thing after all.. I mean. What do you have to lose?


Remember, don't depend on someone else for your happiness.


                                          Love,
                                               A

~Ally-Cat